Every single step .

fine my uni is basically eye candy mountain [or more like, my korean tut] .

but that’s my favourite candy damn it ! >:(

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i saw him lick his lips today and i know it might be insanely weird coming from me [especially me, i know .] but i was just like..hot damn that’s hot .

and then he moved his face so i was scared as hell he’d catch me staring

and i was like OH CRAP X_x

AND MY HEART WAS BEATING LIKE MOTHER FRIKKIN CRAAAAAAZY . @_______@ HOOOOOLY CRAP WHAT THE HELL . i was like craaaaaap my heart is beating so freaking fast . @_@ this is so weird . i have not felt this way in such a long time that i really just do not know what to do right now . i feel so happy but i also feel like it’s because i feel so happy that i’m dying . whut ? +_=

and then i went on not looking in that direction ever again for the whole lesson in fear that my heart my burst if that ever happens . but the part that got me was that i seriously did not feel like that in a very long time . yes i was in a four year long relationship which was practically non-existent and if i wanted to not feel like a cheating bastard i kept it in very good control and my head would instantly be like “hoi, you know you can’t do that .” not to say i didn’t like anyone after . but that was …it was nice . i felt nice, and relieved, but i don’t exactly know if it was because of that person or it was just because i could feel whatever the hell i wanted to feel without my heart being on a leash .

but i never felt…that.

i’m not saying i’m in love . coz that’s ew . but i really feel like i like someone . i really feel happy, so insanely happy . the weird part is that even though i’m like absolutely over the moon and landed into a pool of weird i don’t want to be with him or do anything about it…

…but this feeling is so nice . it’s intoxicating .

and from my peripherals i could see him looking in my direction while i was asking the teacher questions and when my friend would talk to me (who was right next to him) and i’d look in my mates direction i’d see him look away…but then look in my general direction again when my head was back down to ask the teacher questions . XD

but then he’s probably not going to go tut tomorrow and i’m gonna be angry as hell and it’ll never be recovered because that’s the last tut we have . man . :’( lol .

damn it . i finally got 60 fans and i have to go on a freaking hiatus because if i don’t concentrate on uni i might possibly fail one of my subjects [GOOD JOB MAKING ME SKIP A 20% ASSESSMENT LIFE . >_>]

and when i announced the hiatus i got another fan . i wanna submit mangaaaa . T_T depressinggg ! :(


and man hongki’s voice is so hot . wow . just wow . he’s like the korean equivalent to how much i love patrick stump .

and i never knew i had one until i had to freaking see you in the morning today . =_= what followed after that ?

• french lectures that i already hate being crappier than the usual crap .
• me not being able to remember some Chinese characters no matter HOW many times I reviewed . and i spent 4 hours just writing down characters the day before [which is a hell of a lot, for just two chapters]
• a friend that i always have to hang out with pissing me off more than it usually would, just NOT doing work even though i’m trying desperately to freaking get my Chinese characters right . and i know they have their laptop there but because mine was already out they wanted to use it . like freaking hell if you want to hang out with me can you at least shut the hell up ? and not be such a freaking scab ? can you remind me why we’re friends again ?
• meant to have a group practice today but low and behold, one of the people didn’t come
• the person who we have never met for the group prac is a freaking noob . and cannot read characters . =_=
• kept screwing up my readings in Korean . i had to repeat the same line three times . =_______=
• MY FAVOURITE PERSON DIDN’T COME TO CLASS . :( THE ONLY PART OF TODAY WHICH I TOLD MYSELF TO HOLD OUT FOR AND HE WASN’T EVEN THERE . >:(

but on a positive note i always look forward to korean class no matter what . hung out with none other than the people i usually hang out with and freaking hell it was funny . the two people that i love eavesdropping on [it’s not like they don’t know it] had a conversation i don’t think i’ll ever forget .

“god youre so freaking weird .”

“me ? weird ? hey at least the girls i have saved on my phone are celebrities, you get your stuff from their facebook .”

“HEY . HOW ABOUT THAT GIRL FROM-“

*i start laughing .

“NO . I DO NOT WANT TO DISCUSS THIS .”

*me trying to hold in my laugh and pretend i did not just hear their conversation .

*guy next to me sitting their in both embarassment and shame .

oh man . i just cannot . but the one who sits next to me is so weird . we had to say out loud our birthdays in korean [including the year] and after i said mine he was like “you have to address me formally because you’re younger than me .” and i was just thinking…why the hell were you listening ? maybe i’m just a bad student LOL .

no one in that class is getting an ‘oppa’ from me apart from one person, damn it . xD *runs

Replay

Gee

Genie

and Call Me Maybe .

I’m seriously thinking about it considering the fact that these are the only songs I listen to on Tuesdays and Wednesdays .

since saying who our partner is for the next tutorial is due, i’m not looking forward to it . because i don’t want to see the reaction of the person who was trying to be my partner for the assessment .

it’s not like i don’t want to be his partner [smart as hell and hella fun to talk to]

but omfg it was so freaking awkard when that group was attempting to suggest him to be my partner . like, why are you guys doing it so freaking back door ? i was honestly about to be like “WOW YOU SHOULD BE MY PARTNER” but their ‘subtlety’ really made me feel weird . i mean..WHY SO AWKWARD GUYS . WHY SO AWKWARD ? WHY SO HARD TO ASK ME ? IT’S NOT HARD MAN IT’S JUST AN ASSESSMENT . and all the damn awkwardness rubbed off on me and i couldn’t bring myself to suggest it [pretending to be naive can make me feel comfortable for only so long] i mean seriously ?

*me doing work

“WHO ARE YOU GONNA PICK DAN WHO ARE YOU GONNA PICK”

*looks up to him to laugh

*looking directly at me

ooooooomfgwsh all that mother frikkin awkward .

what makes it worse is the person i picked is also a dude, but it’s because he’s also in the same tutorial and lecture with me for another subject, so it’s easy to talk about it . and the people that i hang with, are obviously the class clowns . but we class clowns are loud . and if they’re like WHY and i say the reason, i’m not exactly sure the other person will be fully happy to hear my reason . LOL . =_=

and why aren’t girls fun . =_= this is why i can’t have fun with girls in my korean tut . but i guess this is also what happens when i don’t always sit with that group, lol . >_> what do you guys talk about without me huh ?

oh korean tutorial . my uni entertainment . i’m also pretty sure the girl on my table likes someone in the class . LOL .

one of them are two scared to ask me to be their partner for the upcoming role play, and it’s so funny at their attempted approaches .

they help me with Chinese homework .

AND my favourite person is there . XD

i hope we’re in the same tutorial next semester .

you’re sooo cuute aaaaaah ! :( DARN YOU UNI LOL . :((